April 10, 2021

Lacuna


Just out of grasp, 
he could almost hear  
and almost see 
The flicker of a tongue
though it wouldn’t stop long enough 
to actually read it
But he remembered how it tasted
what it used to taste like 
Was blood and honey 
and the salt of your inner thigh 
It felt real so urgent
Except
there is something missing.  
Something about a song, 
A lyric that kept repeating
Until it almost made sense
But only for only a moment and now gone
Now the crucial part was missing
There was an absence 
more real than the memory itself
beyond his grasp
beyond his fingers numb and frozen 
the wind blew through his ears
Making a whistling sound
He could almost feel
the actual hole 
Of his soft memory
Almost taste his soft lips
The moment they 
first kissed.

April 7, 2021

Overheard









Everything is fine.  I'm ok.  
Just enjoy these fly on the wall conversations. 
this is the lemonade from the lemons.  
The lemon jello.   
Remember, it's not really serious 
if they don't give you jello.  


-Please take off your mask.  We will need you to put on one of ours.

- Please take a seat in the waiting room

- No that's the Covid waiting room.  The normal waiting room is on the right.

- I just passed 50, so things like this are to be expected.

A young girl’s voice- Can you take a selfie of me?

Doctor-That is something I am not comfortable doing here 

Doctor-  Did you vomit?  No response.

- Did you throw up?  No response

- Did the food that you ate come back out your mouth?  

Doctor 2-- The x-ray was clear.  That's just swelling.  You can take advil or tylenol for the pain

Doctor 3 - ".....and a broken heart"

Nurse 1 -  He was a 42 year old pharmacist.  We had to intubate him after 6 hours. Then he died.  That fast. 

- I guess he waited too long to come in

Nurse 2- We have to take more of your blood.

X-ray technician - What is your last name?  Can you spell that?  

- What is your birthday?

Nurse 1- More of them are young people now.

Doctor 4. -Did the pain happen when you were walking the dog?



April 3, 2021

Smells Like Rainbow Sounds Like Velvet


Synesthesia is where information, meant to stimulate one of your senses (for example hearing music), involuntarily stimulates another sense ( like visuals or smell.)


When one says "listen to my song", a synesthete may actually see the colour blue in 
addition to hearing the blues. 

What would a synesthete see with blue dirt girl ? 
Would they smell rainbows? 
Would they hear dreams?  

blue dirt girl is Kathryn Sutherland, Albert Klassen and Jason Overy.  
Their new release is called NOTHING IS AS IT WAS.  
It is nothing like their first release, Crazy Beautiful.
This new blue dirt girl is not content to remain in one place, it does not yearn to  return to a Crazy Beautiful state. 
The new  blue dirt girl  is an affirmation of change as a part of life and art.
The new blue dirt girl deftly mixes together a new masala, a blend of unique,  personal sounds,  sounds bleed into colors, touches, feels, and flavors. 
There is a magic with a three piece band, where every part depends on the others.  It is a delicate relationship to maintain, and like a souffle, can collapse easily,  but also like a souffle, it is a mouthful of perfection.

A song may start in one groove, and then it suddenly shifts down a gear.  Don’t worry- blue dirt girl are excellent drivers and this  car is a handmade beauty.  The changes are not abrupt, but seamless.   No buttons lost, no zippers snagged.

Kathryn Sutherland’s lyrics are open to interpretation, not linear, they are not easy rhymes. They conjure a mood,  inventing new colours, with a masterful brush stroke.   
Albert Klassen is a most amazing bassist, perfectly partnered with his rhythmic counterpart Jason Overy.  I find myself mesmerized by the grooves, not knowing exactly where it is going, but trusting, putting my faith in their capable hands.
The songs channel reggae/dub, modern soul, a dash of 70’s guitar magic.  Something about the feel reminds me of Traffic, Joan Armatrading, and an unnamed, distant memory of the 80’s that as hard as I try, I still can’t remember.  
This is not music that references influences. It breathes a sophisticated rare air. 
The songs: 
Blood: Skeletal guitar, a dub reggae beat, "Everything changed", and the bass begins a pattern that pulls us forward,  "in a moment of anxious clarity", lying here on the edge of the knife, Kathryn the cool, poet soul, commands us  shred your tongue, and everything slows, reverses, is there anything between us, the skeletal guitar and propulsive bass intoxicate. 
the conversation going on here, as we put our masks back on, and climb back aboard the knife.  Steady Jake, it’s only blood that connects us here. Family has their own languages. Their own rules.
But the river flows into the title track....I Don’t Mind. 
There is a great little change,  where even words become inadequate. Dat, dat, dah.  Oh my God, my mind pushes itself to remember, but what? 
And the beat goes on... Sunset Daddy. 
A new time signature, another conversation, the steady beat reasserts itself. We hear a familiar recollection of a towel that threatened to fall as her father goes up the stairs. You better stop....The intimacy of the recollection furthers the connectiion.
But wait, is there only one more song? 

We want more. The music creates the feeling of a child swinging, up, down, always returning to “warm safe hands.”
Cherry blossoms rain from the sky....life goes up and life goes down
or it just spins around, but we always  return to warm safe hands.
You listen many times and discover new connections. This music satisfies needs you were not aware of before. It is relaxed meditations on love, relationships, age. 

This new blue dirt girl is mysterious.  
You don’t know where she is going. 
We are told to beware of strangers, so we will just have to get to know blue dirt girl better.

The road beckons.
It smells like rainbow.
It sounds like velvet.


March 27, 2021

Aging Out

Aging Out


Before my blood was even cold, there was a time when time itself seemed endless. Not that I respected this abundance; far from it, I tested my limits, pushed the boundaries, coloured outside the lines, and actively sought ways to be more self destructive.


When did this aging out begin?


Was it the night that so gradually became morning when I had “lost” my virginity?  Hours of talking and touching, until that moment when reserves finally dissolved, and when we moved to that next level, it was over in a matter of seconds.  


Was it the day I moved out of my parent’s house, saying goodbye to my childhood, moving into a room in a dark, furnished rooming house, filled with antiques and young actors and a man down the hallway who yelled at all hours, trying to silence the voices in his head? 


Was it the thirty days later when I moved back home for a month, until I could find my own apartment?  Was it the night when walking home after picking up some late night Chinese Fast Food, I was assaulted and the blood, formerly running in the veins in my head, was now running down my nose from my eye, my chin from my nose, my chin to my shirt and the sidewalk.  Head wounds always seem so dramatic. 


Was it the first night I went home with the girl who is now the woman I have lived with for so many years?  Or the night I betrayed our trust, or the night I betrayed our trust or the night I betrayed.....


Was it the first forgiveness or the last?  Was it the day John Lennon died, or the night my father died, or my eldest brother or my mother?  Or all the many friends who have gone from this one world to the next?  How every morning I hesitate for a brief moment before plugging into the internetherworld, because I just sense today might be another one of “those days”?


Was it the day in my thirties when looking in the mirror, I did not recognize myself for the first time? How many times since that day, another 30 years of not recognizing the new face, the one that ever so gradually changes? 


How many chins can a man have until it becomes one too many? How much wattle before the chin itself disappears?  How the hair, once his pride and joy, slowly recedes, now thinner, losing its colour,  going flat, like a gin tonic left over from the previous night.  No fizz, no flavour, just watered down ice that has melted, and the diluted drink becomes one with room temp.  The soggy lime has lost its sharpness, and is losing its form, the tang a memory, the bitter notes are all that is left.


Was it the day he married or the day his daughter was born, or any of her moments and milestones- first foods, first steps, first words, first day of school, first time she swam, or read, or called him, a little drunk, wanting a ride home, or the high school graduation or university graduation, or the day she first moved out, and moved back, and moved out, and moved back....


Was it his first job, or first raise, or the first time he quit, or called in sick, or all the days, work days, careers, congratulations, the dark days, the dark years, the dogs, the dark dogs, the dark dogs of depression, his first heart attack, the day he turned 30, 40, 50, 60, tick tick tick..... tick.


Was it his first band, or first band breakup, or second band, or second band breakup, or third band, or second band reunion, or second band breakup, or the many years of not playing music, or the first time he played the Big rooms or the last time?


Or was it the morning, this morning, as he sat and drank coffee and thought about aging, only to realize he is still here.  While many are gone, he remains, and he is still in love and still with the love of his life, and still able to experience more days with his growing daughter, and the little dog who remains,  when all the others died.  


How aging out is a long process, and who knows if the glass is half full or half empty?  It is still a glass.  And he is damned lucky.  So much lucky.

March 22, 2021

We Now Return To Our Regularly Scheduled Programming

 

Somebody changed the clocks while we were wrestling with our nerves all night.

It happened so fast it was almost like it didn’t happen at all.

We were waiting for direction, reluctant to change what we thought we already knew.

They said we would have to wipe the slate clean to allow room for a creative solution.

Please try to understand. 

The old ways don’t work anymore because they just don’t sit right.

 

Holding it together has never been easy, especially when you’ve been up all night

You wake sleep deprived because your mind will not shut up.

You obsess over bad decisions, bad hair, bad skin, why even bad is more bad than usual.

 

Who has the script,  you hear someone say?

Lines!

Clearly we have all forgotten our lines.

Do you hold the baton with menacing abandon as you apply the rouge?

Is there something about the other night that is still haunting you?

 

Outside, the sky is nothing like you thought it would be.

Everywhere we see faces melting as the rain pools on slouched shoulders,

Buttons fly off frayed sweaters, and all the zippers break at the same time, 

split from the bottom up.

You were barely able to pull it when it snagged on something tender.

 

You hear your inside voices unspooling.

You are fooling no one.

Your shaking hands know better as you raise the hot spoon cautiously to your hungry lips.

 

We are drowning in acronyms. No one speaks in complete sentences.

WTF! FYI- I feel like going AWOL.  LOL.

Does anything make any sense anymore?

Can you explain why a foreign alphabet is floating in this suspicious broth?

Did you perceive a bitter note on the finish?

Did something sharp catch in your throat as you tried to swallow?

Does your stomach conjure a mess of emotions that slowly is creeping up your esophagus, hell bent on escape? 

Meanwhile on the tip of your nose, a saline drop slowly gathers steam.

It is growing heavy with the weight of having to hold your nose, while your struggle for air.

The suspense is killing us here.....

Finally, it crashes into the soup, just as your spoon dips in for another mouthful.

 

The audience shifts in their seats. Have they lost the plot here?  

Do we have to go back to the beginning just to find our own voices?

No one understands what they are seeing tonight,

but allow me to speak for the crowd,

“They are anxiously waiting for the action to resume”

Any casual observer can see

They just want it all to be over.

 

The drugs have had their intended effect, calming the restless nature of the narrative.

No one even remembers why they are here, 

or where they were going before it all began,

The random confusion makes perfect sense to the actors rehearsing their bows.

 

In the cover of darkness, the audience has ghosted the play, exiting before the actor utters the line that everyone had been waiting to hear....

 

 

March 10, 2021

The Judys MORE

 


The Judys second album, MORE was released in September 2020.  


SOMETHING IN THE AIR
Is it funny when we share
everything we do or care?
Dust is floating in the air
fingers running through my hair....

Software's eating me alive
I must connect or I will die
Something is not right
with this modern appetite
We assume what we consume
and there is no private room 
They're digging every tomb
Brush the dead off with a broom

Something in the air

Is that a bird 
is that a drone?
They're listening to you on your phone
You think I'm paranoid?
I'm GOD!
I think your algorithms flawed
Five Eyes they want 5-G
Just not the Chinese variety
Is it Huawei or My Way?
Another train wreck on the highway

Something in the air

Every mother's KGB
King Tut's butt for all to see
For we are all the CIA
We're Edward Snowden's dna

As we climb the slippery slope
Fact checking things on Snopes
and everybody's high on coke
and everybody's in on the joke
Ha Ha Ha

Something in the air



ANOTHER GODDAM MAN

He keeps his feelings bottled up
'cause he's that kind of man
Gold card in the old boys club
yeah you're that kind of man
Over 50 but he never grew up
Yeah you're that kind of man
#MeToo was just a hiccup
Yeah you're that kind of man

What kind of man are you?

You're just a man 
Just another goddam man
And I've known so many men before
My God, you're just one more
Another goddam man
Another goddam man
Another goddam man.

What kind of man are you?

Another goddam man.


GOIN' OUT WEST   (Waits/Brennan)


WELCOME TO NEW YORK

Black Betty licks her lips with the devil's dust
In a hole in the back where the mirror's are cracked
and the razor's lined with rust
She can turn the clock back, make a white man black
Then you really lose control
You can cry all night, but you'll never win the fight
when Black Betty's got your soul

Welcome to New York
You won't be staying here too long
Forgot all the stupid words
to that old fashioned drug song.

Black Betty cuts a line through the crowd just like a cat
With her nails so sharp, like a needle to your heart
She makes the mirror ball flat
Well it all gets blurry, and your throat gets kinda of furry
and you think you might have ate the cat
Black Betty holds your hand, while you're holding up your end
and death is like your only friend.

Welcome to New York
You won't be staying here too long
Forgot all the stupid words
to that old fashioned drug song.

Just another old fashioned drug song.

FUCKED UP

Steve brought the knives and the Lebanese blonde
We used to shoot bullfrogs down by the pond
Rennie's 64 Impala with the red insides
We'd roll the windows up and crank the heat up high
In the summer we would cruise down by the pool
where those girls in their bikinis man they were so cruel
We had Aerosmith on 8-track
Dream On in the front and girls in the back.

And we were fucked up then
and life was just a bore
We were doing what we want
and we just want more...More MORE MORE!

Big Pete got smoked one night in the park
Crazy Joe got a gun and shot him in the dark
Big Pete was just trying to get his life back on track
And Steve's Mom always wondered how her knives got black.

And we were fucked up then
and life was just a bore
We were doing what we want
and we just want more...More MORE MORE!

Fucked up
Fucked up

Well we were fucked up then
and life was just a bore
We were doing what we want
and we just want more...More MORE MORE!

THE WHOLE WORLD'S ON DRUGS
Baby's got a bucket and she's putting on some pudge
She's got a brand new drug, calls it Tattoo Fudge
You don't have to go to circus
to find yourself a clown
Just turn on the TV, see what's going down.

The Whole World's On Drugs

You can roll it , you can lick it, you can find it on the ground
Some people falling in love, some people falling down
Some people living on the streets, some people living on the edge
Some people holding hands when they jump off the ledge.

The Whole World's On Drugs

Sugar makes the world go round.
(Tell it to me, sugar)
Sugar makes the world go round
(Sell it to me sugar)

The Whole Word's On Drugs

BEST BEFORE

When all the good men die
Even the funny man has to cry
Sometimes it's funny the people who live
Sometimes it's funny the people who die

I used to be the Last Good Man
that's what they called me, that's what I am
I got so high, one day I just fell
You picked me up, put me back on the shelf.

I never knew what I was good for
I guess I could have been better
I guess I was just best before
before we started keeping score.

Remember Jonah and the Whale
Inside that fish, he found betrayal
Betrayal is a snake it has two ends
One chews your soul, one choose your friends.

I never knew what I was good for
I guess I could have been better
I guess I was just best before
before we started keeping score.

Good friends come, and good friends go
Guess I was just the last to know
The last to know, the first one to leave
What you did, I still don't believe.

I never knew what I was good for.....

All songs by The Judys (c) 2020. All rights reserved.

THE JUDYS:
Pete Feend, Scott Fletcher, Taylor Little, Dano-5-O, Shelley Preston,  Dennis Mills.
Mixed and Engineered by Dan Ponich
Produced by The Judys
Mastered by Philip Bova Shaw
Cover by Dennis Mills and Chantelle Normoyle


February 20, 2021

When Looking For Angels, Start with the Mirror

Red digital numbers glow in the darkened room. 

They say 1:11.  

I have only been sleeping for 2 hours. It's like the wash cycle is over, and I must wake to witness the rinse cycle.   

In the world of numbers, 1:11 is a sign of special Angels.  

Angels are never singular, but always many.  

They want you to relax and lighten up.  

They whisper we are near watching over you.  

You don't have to take on the burden of knowing everything. 

Let  life unfold, one wrinkle at a time.

Signs of three numbers are signs that the Angels are trying to get your attention.  They literally want you to wake up.  A spiritual awakening beckons.  The appearance of three numbers is energy amplified. 

1 is a symbol of wholeness. Solitary, singular, and basic.  It is the beginning, the middle, and it is the end. 

1:11 is a sign that you are about to begin anew.

We are born alone and we may die alone, but in the middle, the now, we are social beings. We need others, and when we need, we must thank "thems" that brought us to the party.

I fall back asleep, and awaken again.  It is now 5:55.   555 is another Angel.  5 signals change, opportunities and risk.  It could be a new job, a new relationship, or a new location.  But we cannot move forward in fear.  We have to let go of fear to listen, advance and progress.  

We have gone through a very dark time, and there may be much more darkness before we get to the dawn. 

Where do we go?   How do we get there?  The fears we hold close, they are clouding our vision, keeping us in a fog of our own making.  Negative thought patterns weave a mesh, that becomes a net.  This is not a safety net.  This is a net that restricts our movements forward.

When I sit to write, I try to open my mind, and follow where the thoughts lead me.  I wrote a note the other day to myself, concerned with numbers, counting, repetitions, and obsessive behaviours.  I have been doing morning exercises and stretching for the past few months.  I find if I even miss a day, the places in my body that hold the stress rebel.   And the progress of a few months, can be erased in a few days.  The pain in my lower back goes into spasms.  My sleep is interrupted.  I feel lost.  Communications are frustrated, movements are frozen.  Literally most of North America is frozen.  

We are shut in by the pandemic, we are not allowed to go beyond the bubble.  And we are all going a little crazy. So we look for signs.  Signs to tell us where to go, how to get there.  

But now more than ever, we must breathe.  

Relax. 

Move beyond the crap we are drowning in. 

But how we ask.

We need to reach out to others, become the angels we want them to be.

Somebody has to start this.   Somebody has to make the first move.

Will it be you?

Will it be me?




January 31, 2021

The Radical Search for the Gooey Center, or Honey, I Shrank the Badger, or Billy Pilgrim's Progress

Nostalgia isn't what it used to be.  We yearn for a time that is past and gone. Perhaps, it never was.  If you are confused now, just wait.  We ask that you keep up, and just get with the program. As a teacher once scolded me and some friends who were trying to change the course of simulated history, "don't ruin it for all the other kids." 

Which brings us to the heart of the matter-dislocation, dislocation, dislocation. Dislocation occurs when a bone slips out of a joint. That is a physical definition.  But what of the mental dislocation when time itself is out of joint?   

As a young man, I was consumed with Philip K. Dick and his worlds of shifting realities.  Just because you're paranoid doesn't mean someone isn't out to get you.  

But paranoias were simpler then.  The paranoia virus had not yet mutated, into our "modern" variants and conspiracy theories, and alternate realities.   Dick's writing, fueled on amphetamines and poverty, presented a world of nebbish characters, who would slowly find out that the world they thought they knew, was not in fact the real world at all.  Little by little, the world would start to degrade, the ground would begin to melt, and chaos, as funny as he depicted it, would begin to swallow these characters whole.  While his characters were not consciously unreliable narrators,  they began to doubt the reality of their own experiences.  They began to lose trust in their cognitive ability to discern what was real and what was not. 

"Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,
To the last syllable of recorded time;
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools
The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player,
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,
And then is heard no more. It is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing."  Shakespeare

Or in the words of David Bowie, "Where the fuck did  Monday go?"  

As we enter year two of the pandemic Covideodrome 19, remember the dangers of early adopting technology.  Witness James Woods in the Cronenberg movie Videodrome.  







Now that's got to hurt.  

Billy Pilgrim has become unstuck in time.  We are told that becoming unstuck is analogous to living from moment to moment.  Only the moments are not chronological.  Logic is thrown out the window with the baby and the bathwater.  To the man on the street who looks up, and says in disgust, "More babies, more bathwater."   

Come on, a nice hot bath will sort you out.  Except after a year of soaking, your skin is so porous, you can barely keep your soft gooey center  from filling the tub.

Next week, we get Groundhog Day.   Will Punxsutawney Phil, the world's oldest rodent,  see his shadow, and there will be seven more years of pandemic?   Are there more Punx named Phil than there were Lassies?  The Old Farmer's Almanac instructs us in how the groundhog fit into this ancient festival.  Historically, a groundhog wasn’t the animal of choice: a bear brought the forecast to the people of France and England, while those in Germany looked to a badger for a sign.  Perhaps a honey badger would be a better mascot for 2021. 

Speaking of honey badger, doesn't that sound like a comfort food of the week?   An unfortunate side effect of all this staying inside is Instagram food photography.

Too many food selfies that look like someone got sick, and now it's boiling.  

HONEY BADGER (Wuhan Style)  (recipe not available at this time)

Please note: Badger is not easy to find at your local supermarket.  There are butchers who specialize in game.  And finding a badger, and covering them in honey is a game not to be taken lightly.   Personal Protective Equipment is necessary.  I dare say, you may want to vaccinate before even attempting it.  



January 3, 2021

FEAR OF QUICKSAND

As a child, one of my greatest fears was quicksand.  Because there were so many opportunities to drown in quicksand where I lived.  You could literally not walk to school without falling into a giant pit of quicksand. And if that wasn't bad enough, you almost always were tripping on the heads or hands of beautiful young, scantily clad persons of the feminine persuasion.  

In television and movies, quicksand was everywhere.  It was a common danger in those days, what I call my Wonder Bread years, between 5 and 15.  We knew nothing about cholesterol, or alcohol, or almost anything at all.   But we knew the perils of quicksand.  

There was a strange show called The Wild, Wild West with patriot Robert Conrad.  It was all about his wild adventures in ...you guessed it...the Wild Wild West.  To make matters worse, his name was West.  Jim West.  I don't remember Jim West drinking any damn martinis, like a suave Englishman of similar bent.  He was quite the macho dandy, with guns that slid out his sleeve.  I actually don't remember too much about the show, except it was a weird mashup of a Western, Fantasy and Science Fiction, perhaps a precursor to Westworld.  

There were about 100 or more episodes, and it ran from  1965-1969 before falling victim to the efforts by Network TV to reduce violence on television.  Considering that every night, we were watching burning children and other atrocities live from Vietnam, assassinations of President Kennedy, his assassin Lee Harvey Oswald,  Martin Luther King and the President's brother, reducing violence was somewhat ironic.

 

I am not even sure there was an episode with quicksand on The Wild, Wild West, but it would have fit right in.   My mother told me once of a time, when as a teenager,  she and her friends were caught out on the mudflats near Crescent Beach, and narrowly avoided the fate of quicksand.   
True story.   That she told me a story, that part was true for sure.  The other part about the quicksand, I'm not so sure.

At some point, I guess that I lost my fear of quicksand.  Don't misunderstand me,  I'm still terrified of drowning in quicksand. But even though I live in the Tea Swamp, it is the houses that are sinking, not any young scantily clad vixens.  

While it is a known fact that quicksand loves vixens, like dogs love kleenex, I also don't run into many vixens these days.  But that doesn't mean they don't exist.   Somewhere, vixens are still being lured into quicksand, while my dreams are more like how "they" are turning hotels into apartments, or how I forgot my pants on the way to work.   

 https://www.imdb.com/video/vi1627700761?playlistId=tt0058855&ref_=tt_ov_vi

January 2, 2021

Craps on a global stage: Lists, Numbers, Stats, Slights, Slots. 2020, a year in review

Welcome to 2021. A brand new year.   Let us summarize the previous year, what we have accomplished, and hopefully where  we go from here.

In 2020, I wrote 19 posts.  

The most read was The Stages of Pandemic Grief.  We can see that the numbers have fallen off in the last two months; our team of analysts have yet to discover the reasons for this.  I once remarked that shit happens - for a reason.  My wife corrected me.  Shit happens, she said, and then we search for reasons.  Sometimes there is no reason, sometimes the answer is that there is no answer.  Choices are only chance, luck, fate, a lottery ticket forgotten in the jacket you are buried in.  

One thing for certain,  we are stuck on shuffle, the random elements are ruling the roost. Someone left a cake out in the rain.  We don't think that we can take it, but we find out that indeed we can take it. We have no choice but to take it and pretend we like it.  

Men don't need reasons to make lists up.  It is programmed in the suicidal genes, the X chromosome. When I was a young boy, I made up all kinds of lists.  I made up lists of all the countries in the world.  I wrote these down on graph paper, the forerunner of the spreadsheet.  

I wrote the names of all the capitals, and then all the leaders from A-Z.  Then I would stage wars with these countries, rolling a pair of dice to determine the fate of  Trinidad or French Congo.   Perhaps these dice games were not so far off from the way the real leaders played out their games of chance.

I progressed from graph paper to Strat-O-Matic Baseball. Every team, every player, and every season new cards arrived.  Nerds like me would replay entire seasons, compiling our own stats in the Strat -O-Matic world.   

My favourite team was the San Francisco Giants, with Willie Mays, Bobby Bonds ( father of disputed Home Run King*- Barry Bonds), Juan Marichal, Willie McCovey, Chris Speier, Tito Fuentes and so many more.  Even the lousy players had their own cards.  

Kansas City Royals had a guy named Freddie Patek.  Now all you Royals fans, don't assume I am calling Freddie a lousy player.  Nothing can be further from the truth. The numbers don't lie.

SUMMARY

Career

WAR

24.1

AB

5530

H

1340

HR

41

BA

.242

R

736

RBI

490

SB

385

OBP

.309

SLG

.324

OPS

.633

OPS+

79




I have no idea why my brain dredged old Freddie up.  Perhaps nostalgia for guys named Freddie.  My dad was named Freddie.  I had a teen friend named Fred, who moved away to Louisiana.  In those days, when friends moved away, you wrote them letters.  Now I don't even remember his last name, and yet I remember Freddie Patek.

Fun fact for nerds: the singular form of dice is die.   The word die comes from Old French ; from Latin datum "something which is given or played". In English, the most common way to make nouns plural is to add an S. If die followed that rule, its plural form would be dies."

So it may not be that great a leap to think that life and death could be determined by the roll of the dice. 

Games involving dice are mentioned in the ancient books. There are several biblical references to "casting lots" , as in Psalm 22, indicating that dicing (or a related activity) was commonplace. 

Dicing?
I digress here, but what was the psalm with the casting couches?  

Dice are very popular, and men, being creatures of  habit, are drawn to games of chance.  As sex can be the greatest game of chance, Sex dice is actually a thing.  This dice game is intended to heighten the sexual atmosphere and promote foreplay. Instead of numbers, each face on the dice contains the name of a body part; the body part that faces up when the die is rolled must then be given sexual attention.
The Daily Princetonian suggests rolling sex dice to "break the ice and extend [one's] foreplay." The University Daily Kansan advises a roll of the sex dice for those who are not particularly limber (and therefore cannot try "new and inventive position[s]") as a means to "bring variety to [one's] bedroom romps."

Dorothy, even Kansas isn't Kansas anymore.   What is this strange world we have landed in?  Why are the men so short, and the monkeys so winged?  Freddie Patek played shortstop for Kansas.

And bedroom romps.  Was there much romping going on in 2020? Is anyone still romping?  God bless you if you are. Romping is to play or frolic in a lively or boisterous manner, while a romp goes back to the game theory and notes a definitive win.  2020 had few romps, as most everyone was obsessed with numbers, counting of numbers, recounts of numbers, fake numbers, real numbers, so many fucking numbers.  So much lucky, as I like to say.   
Ready for a new roll? 
Another game, shall we? 

What'll it be? 
Craps?
Snake eyes?
Boxcars?