January 9, 2015
Before and After
Before and after.
RCA- not the dog listening to his Master in the megaphone, but the
Right Coronary Artery.
May 21 2007.
May 22 2007.
RCA - the river runs through it. Through the miracle of modern science and a deal with God struck up in the air above NY on the way to Atlanta.
God, I said.
If you are there.
I have had a great life.
But if there is a reason for me to still be here, if there is still more for me to do, please get me to Atlanta.
And I arrived. And I made a joke about the widow maker, and ended up in an emergency room, and I survived to tell this story. A story of how a small piece of chicken wire opens my heart to an expanded life.
Flash forward 8 years.
Some friends of mine are no longer here. They did not have the opportunity or fortune to survive.
There are more.
My love and best of the best of good thoughts go out to all of them.
Christ, I miss them. Too young.
2014 was another year of growth and wonder, and death and beauty.
There was a time and it returns from time to time where I feel I have a time bomb in my chest.
Rather than making life seems more dear and precious, I feel the need to push.
Push myself to new adventures. New music. New relationships.
Because to stay still to stay constant to not change is to die a little each day.
And I can't make time for that.
I am grateful for this bonus, this extra life and I am grateful for all the friends who I have seen in the past week who reignite memories from our past.
These beautiful people who are real people with real lives, who without any help from me, without any attention or contact from me, continue to live and breathe and make their own memories.
Which makes me feel insignificant and special - all at the same time.
And we have a new year upon us.
Who finds love?
Who becomes a grandparent?
Who loses a parent?
Who gets flowers this weekend?
Who gets to have such great fortune as I have had this past year?
Truly I wish that you all have an unbelievable new year. That you have an incredible month, week, day.
Because at a certain point, like maybe the day after you are born, it is all a bonus.
Life is a gift. Open it. Take it home and love it. Hold it close to your heart.
Listen to it's song. Read it's story. Life it like you will not live another day.
Because we never know.
Don't wait for anything. Take it and make it yours.
Find someone or something to love.
And love it with all your heart.